Wednesday, April 9, 2014

Feeling Grateful

Well surgery time has come! I am excited, nervous, anxious and scared. I know its typical to feel this way, so I just take it one moment at a time. I am one lucky girl to have such an amazing family and great friends that have stood by me through this medical journey. My husband Gene has been great, and has been there for me through all of my pains to help me. When you marry someone, they need to be that person who can help you to the bathroom, wash you, and feed you. In the end, its that person you will want to be with. I am so fortunate and grateful. My parents are my rock. I am blessed to be my mother's child. My dad has been an amazing person with whom I wasn't always a great daughter to. But we have come a long ways and learned what it means to be father & daughter. My brother Eric and my niece Kaelyn mean the world to me and I would give my life for them any day. I am so grateful. Not many people have what I have.

When I wake up from surgery, I want to begin a new chapter in my life. I want to get healthy and focus on quality of life versus the party of life. I want to get real with everyone, and especially with myself. I want to live for me, not for everyone else. I want to give up on worrying about what people think of me or how they judge me. I want to read more, and take more trips. I want to write more, and take more photos. I want to make time to finish my education. Stop running from the past, and just accept what is. Life is too short to wait. I look forward to this new chapter.

- Jen